Ever had one of those really long days? the one that starts before the sun comes up and seems to go after the second moon has risen... but like two nights later? You feel bogged down, sluggish, inarticulate... really, really, tired? Some days that's what old age feels like oh... mid afternoon. I mean... my first kid was born over 70 years ago! Seven decades! Lindiwe could have lived her life to this point twice and still have room to spare!
Well, regardless... I help myself to stay feeling young by dating the more spry and youthful tauren women I meet. That's how I ended up with my third wife. I'll be frank here, we had no intention of getting married, and it wasn't like it was with Kinati (while her dad forced the issue I was happy to take part). She got pregnant and the pressures of society and fingers on triggers really go a long way to making a tauren see the light.
Who knows, maybe, if we'd been left to our own devices, we might have moved past lust and discovered love... but forcing the issue really made the marriage taste a bit bitter. She resented me for my part in saddling her with new responsibilities... I resented her for the effective shackle she put around my ankle. That started a spiral of near-hatred that soured any friendship we had at the start. To this day I can't even write out her name.
Our children suffered the most for it, Ameyah and Akikta (born in that order) left home early on to go for training with the shaman, ignoring a mother and father that practiced as druids. Ameyah is still stoic and immersed in her work... she's unhappy and I don't know of anything that will make her smile sincerely. Akikta hasn't been seen in years, though I saw his mentor and his mother recently (I quickly went the other way, I think I might lose a limb if I got too close to her) so I'm sure he's around.
Well spilt milk and all, right? It's a good thing I hide this autobiography so well and that none of my sneaky children will think to go looking for it to read things they don't need to read before I'm dead and gone. I think if I knew one of my beloved children were reading this behind my back it just might kill me, my heart would simply give out and I'd keel over. Deader than a doorknob. Cold as the Lich King and about as animated as Silas Darkmoon's profit margin. It would be like a knife in the back to even KNOW that my children might disobey me and read my private thoughts in a secretly stashed book. So it's a good thing none of my kids would EVER do something like that. Shuffle off this mortal coil and you know, stuff.
Author's Note: Ameyah and Akikta are played by me and my husband, originally in Pack Spirit. I continued to play Ameyah in Brightmoon Faire while Akikta was left unplayed... and apparently missing! The mentor mentioned is a player character, Onatam of Pack Spirit.
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